Tomorrow is the big day! Our first ultrasound! I will be 5 weeks, 6 days. I know it's early and that we probably won't see much. I don't really expect to see a heartbeat because I know that usually happens in week 6. All I can do is hope that baby is where it's supposed to be and is measuring correctly.
I don't feel as nervous as I thought I would feel, which is nice. After my miscarriage, I really struggled with whether or not I would be ready to try again after my first cycle. One day, my husband and I had a frank discussion and I told him how I was feeling. I was worried that my miscarriage would make me worry about every little thing. If we didn't get pregnant the first month, would I feel like something was wrong with me? If and when I did get pregnant again, would I be able to enjoy it? Would I just feel like I was just constantly waiting for bad news again? It was the first time I really said it out loud. I was scared. After we talked, I had a revelation of sorts. When will I ever feel ready? The truth is, I don't think I would have ever felt like I was ready. My insecurities and worries are always going to be there. My innocence was robbed. I know what it feels like to lose a baby. But.. I also know I survived it and that was important to remember, too. So, we tried again as soon as we could and here we are today. :)
In other news, I have been feeling super nauseous at least once a day since I hit 5 weeks. As I write this, my stomach is a burny, unhappy mess. If nausea is any indication of a happy, healthy baby though, I'm more than willing to deal with the nausea every day.
As far as working out, I managed a 2.5 mile walk today around our lake. If I can get my butt in gear by the end of the day, I also plan on doing the following:
10 rounds-
10 burpees
10 butterfly sit ups
Updates to come, tomorrow after my ultrasound!
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